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Posts Tagged ‘paralyzed’

Fear Of The Unknown

The #Coronavirus disease (#COVID-19) 🦠 has become a worldwide #pandemic creating fear and anxiety in many, including me. Continue Reading Here

I HATE 😡 Having To Explain

UGH…. sometimes I feel like I try to “act” like everything is fine, sometimes even good and sometimes I even trick myself into feeling somewhat “normal” like thing may actually be okay. Then, unexpected and unpredictable and like I say all the time, SLAM, something happens and I am once again reminded that everything is NOT okay and I am NOT okay. Continue Reading Here

Feeling Sad and Sadly Embarrassed 😢

Yes I’m feeling sad. My childhood BFF lost her brother to cancer. 😢  Their house was like my second home when we were younger. My childhood BFF had 7 siblings so with 8 children and always a few friends floating around, well it was a party even when it wasn’t a party.

This will be the first wake I’ve had to attend since that fateful day in June 2016 left me #paralyzed and in this da___ #wheelchair, and, well, I’m embarrassed to have to be seen in this wheelchair, I’m embarrassed to admit it but, yes, I’m vain. Continue Reading Here

Making Room. . .

So as you read in my last post “When Enough Has To Be Enough” I need to try to move forward with #living_this_paralyzed_life as it is if I hope to gain any true happiness and peace of mind, both for me and for my honey and I together. Continue Reading Here

When Enough Has To Be Enough

Here I sit, 3.5 years after that fateful day in 2016, saying it out loud. . .

STOP
ENOUGH IS ENOUGH

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What Do You See When You Look At Me?

I’ve been trying to figure out how to write what I’ve been thinking/feeling about a situation I was in last week which made me wonder, what do people think when they see me. I apologize upfront if this post is a bit scattered or is too lengthy. Continue Reading Here

Autumn’s Adventures – Gone Forever

I have so many conflicting thoughts 😕 about this blog post circling inside my head… Last month, in my posts Falling For Fall…Again and Odd, How Old and Dying Can Feel So Invigorating I told you how much I’ve always enjoyed Fall. The Fall colors, the brisk air, the smell of fresh basked apple pie 🥧 are certainly invigorating, but what I didn’t consider at the beginning of the season (only a few weeks ago) was the sadness 😦 that I’m now feeling as we get further into Autumn.

As we move into October, more and more harvest festivals and October fests begin to take place bring with it the yet again, reminders of what I can no longer take part in, no longer look forward to and no longer enjoy.

Farms and farmland are not normally easily #accessible in a #wheelchair It’s difficult if not impossible to move across the uneven grounds of an apple orchard 🍎 in a #wheelchair. It’s difficult if not impossible to move around the uneven grounds of a pumpkin patch 🎃 in a #wheelchair. It’s impossible to enjoy a hayride as a #paraplegic. It’s impossible to feel the leaves 🍂 crunch beneath your feet 🚶‍♀️ in a #wheelchair. It’s IMPOSSIBLE to fully enjoy Autumn’s adventures.

I miss walking hand-in-hand 🤝 with my honey through piles of leaves, as we laughed together enjoying each other. I miss being happy as we playfully took pictures of ourselves in those fun autumn cutouts.

As we drove around the #Catskills this past weekend. which was in full peak for leaf peeping, I was once again reminded of all the things I no longer can do since that fateful day in June 2016 when surgery gone wrong left me #paralyzed. As the colors begin to fade and days become darker earlier, so too does my spirits darken. Outwardly, for my honey, I force myself to enjoy the ride, enjoy looking at the colorful landscape passing by me as we drove, while inward thinking just as sure as the beauty of this landscape is passing me by so too has my happy life.

As always, I wish you days filled with wonder – take a minute to wonder what it is that made you smile today!

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In Honor Of Our First Year of #Living_This_Paralyzed_Life of “Wonders” Part 1 = Q4 2018

Okay so we know it’s been 3+ years now since that fateful day in June 2016 when hip surgery went wrong and left me #paralyzed from the waist down, but it’s been almost 1 year since I started blogging again. I thought I’d recap and summarize my year of blogging about #LivingThisParalyzedLife, some good, some bad, some happy, and oh yes, some sad, but all the while a real life learning adventure. Continue Reading Here

When Limited Mobility/Independence Become Even More Limited

After my surgery gone wrong left me #paralyzed from my waist down back in June 2016, #mobility and #independence came to a screeching halt! 

About 8 months later, Continue Reading Here

Falling For Fall…Again😉

OMG, for the first time since my surgery gone wrong left me #paralyzed in 2016, I can’t believe my inner self is actually flirting with falling for Fall. . . again! Continue Reading Here

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