Phyllis Tarlow Fine Art - Hudson From Bear Mt

Summertime Sadness

Yesterday marked 4 years since that fateful day when for all intensive purposes my good life came to an end.

The odd thing about yesterday was I didn’t even realize that it was the 21st of June, 4 years since at the hands of surgery gone wrong I became #paralyzed, 4 years confined to this #wheelchair, 4 years left out of many activities, 4 years since I lived a life worth living.

Now did I not realize the day because of the #COVID19 #pandemic, maybe; did I not realize the day became I’ve become complacent or did I not realize the day because I simply just don’t care, not sure 🤷 but I do know what made me finally realize it was the 21st of June and a huge reminder of all I’ve lost.

The summertime sadness hit me hard when my neighbor was outside planting beautiful flowers in front of her place; and just like that I was slapped in the face with sadness.

I miss #gardening, I miss swimming, I miss beach vacations with my honey, I miss walking in the sand on a sunny day, I miss being able to refinish furniture pieces, heck I even miss being able to cook. . .I miss my life. All the things I miss came rushing back when I saw my neighbor planting. I use to ❤️ gardening! I would plant mostly perennials in the front of our place and would do several window boxes on the deck. Here is a sampling of my gardening (before #paralysis).

As always, I wish you days filled with WONDER! I encourage you to take a minute to WONDER what it is that made you smile today! 😃

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2 Responses to “Summertime Sadness”

  • Starr Herscovitch says:

    4 yrs ago, you walked into the hospital for a hip replacement. The surgery took place on June 21, 2016. Unfortunately, that surgery left you paralyzed – unable to walk. Your life changed forever. Now 4 yrs later, still unable to walk, you’re confined to a wheelchair. We’ve been friends for almost 40 yrs. I think of you everyday and WONDER… what if?

  • M grassie says:

    Your gardens were beautiful. Remember when you got angry at my son and said he just had to adjust. Well he hasn’t either because of all he has lost like fingers & use of right hand. He is in pain every minute of every day. So severe sometimes it brings him to tears. He lost all ability to do all he loves, motorcycles, fast cars, fishing, working around the house. Fixing cars, walking without pain and risk of falling over the slightest bump or crack in sidewalk, and doing more with his kids. He has lost respect from a lot of people who view him as week now, all because a women didn’t look before she pulled out without looking and hit him.. yes life sucks and it hurts family to. We wish all this hadn’t happened to both of you. It’s a very difficult life after someone else’s negligence takes away life as you know it so sorry for you both

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