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Archive for the ‘Living This Paralyzed Life’ Category

What Do You See When You Look At Me?

I’ve been trying to figure out how to write what I’ve been thinking/feeling about a situation I was in last week which made me wonder, what do people think when they see me. I apologize upfront if this post is a bit scattered or is too lengthy. Continue Reading Here

When It Shouldn’t Be About Me. . .

Today is a sad day, today my Uncle passed away.  He was a strong man, a man of few words but always there if needed. Today my Mother lost one of her brothers. Continue Reading Here

Autumn’s Adventures – Gone Forever

I have so many conflicting thoughts 😕 about this blog post circling inside my head… Last month, in my posts Falling For Fall…Again and Odd, How Old and Dying Can Feel So Invigorating I told you how much I’ve always enjoyed Fall. The Fall colors, the brisk air, the smell of fresh basked apple pie 🥧 are certainly invigorating, but what I didn’t consider at the beginning of the season (only a few weeks ago) was the sadness 😦 that I’m now feeling as we get further into Autumn.

As we move into October, more and more harvest festivals and October fests begin to take place bring with it the yet again, reminders of what I can no longer take part in, no longer look forward to and no longer enjoy.

Farms and farmland are not normally easily #accessible in a #wheelchair It’s difficult if not impossible to move across the uneven grounds of an apple orchard 🍎 in a #wheelchair. It’s difficult if not impossible to move around the uneven grounds of a pumpkin patch 🎃 in a #wheelchair. It’s impossible to enjoy a hayride as a #paraplegic. It’s impossible to feel the leaves 🍂 crunch beneath your feet 🚶‍♀️ in a #wheelchair. It’s IMPOSSIBLE to fully enjoy Autumn’s adventures.

I miss walking hand-in-hand 🤝 with my honey through piles of leaves, as we laughed together enjoying each other. I miss being happy as we playfully took pictures of ourselves in those fun autumn cutouts.

As we drove around the #Catskills this past weekend. which was in full peak for leaf peeping, I was once again reminded of all the things I no longer can do since that fateful day in June 2016 when surgery gone wrong left me #paralyzed. As the colors begin to fade and days become darker earlier, so too does my spirits darken. Outwardly, for my honey, I force myself to enjoy the ride, enjoy looking at the colorful landscape passing by me as we drove, while inward thinking just as sure as the beauty of this landscape is passing me by so too has my happy life.

As always, I wish you days filled with wonder – take a minute to wonder what it is that made you smile today!

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In Honor Of Our First Year of #Living_This_Paralyzed_Life of “Wonders” Part 1 = Q4 2018

Okay so we know it’s been 3+ years now since that fateful day in June 2016 when hip surgery went wrong and left me #paralyzed from the waist down, but it’s been almost 1 year since I started blogging again. I thought I’d recap and summarize my year of blogging about #LivingThisParalyzedLife, some good, some bad, some happy, and oh yes, some sad, but all the while a real life learning adventure. Continue Reading Here

When Limited Mobility/Independence Become Even More Limited

After my surgery gone wrong left me #paralyzed from my waist down back in June 2016, #mobility and #independence came to a screeching halt! 

About 8 months later, Continue Reading Here

Falling For Fall…Again😉

OMG, for the first time since my surgery gone wrong left me #paralyzed in 2016, I can’t believe my inner self is actually flirting with falling for Fall. . . again! Continue Reading Here

My/Our 4 Day Weekend…YAY turned to NAY

So last week Wednesday was our Friday! Yay, we had a 4 day weekend ahead!  I was excited, excited to spend 4 days with my honey! And then it happened, as it has so many times over the last 3 years, I was reminded of how  useless I really am because of this dX#m #wheelchair 🙁 Continue Reading Here

I Wish I Could Help. . .

UGH, I hate not being able to help my friends and family! My parents are aging and I’m supposed to be able to be there for them but can’t because of this damn #wheelchair!

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Out of Sight…Out of Mind

 

I wonder if he thinks of me?   I wonder if he wonders how I’m doing?    I wonder if he’s enjoying summer vacation with his wife and children?    I wonder if he realizes the damages from that fateful day.    I wonder if he knows how many lives are now affected, changed forever, never to be repaired.       

1,095 days since. . .

June 21, 2016 marked the beginning of the end in many ways. That fateful day set me and my family on a journey none of us were prepared for or expected.

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