Phyllis Tarlow Fine Art - Hudson From Bear Mt
If you’d like to have my updates delivered right to your email box, just…..

Enter your email address:

Delivered by FeedBurner

HELP IF YOU CAN
LIKE US ON FACEBOOK

Archive for the ‘General’ Category

Autumn’s Adventures – Gone Forever

I have so many conflicting thoughts 😕 about this blog post circling inside my head… Last month, in my posts Falling For Fall…Again and Odd, How Old and Dying Can Feel So Invigorating I told you how much I’ve always enjoyed Fall. The Fall colors, the brisk air, the smell of fresh basked apple pie 🥧 are certainly invigorating, but what I didn’t consider at the beginning of the season (only a few weeks ago) was the sadness 😦 that I’m now feeling as we get further into Autumn.

As we move into October, more and more harvest festivals and October fests begin to take place bring with it the yet again, reminders of what I can no longer take part in, no longer look forward to and no longer enjoy.

Farms and farmland are not normally easily #accessible in a #wheelchair It’s difficult if not impossible to move across the uneven grounds of an apple orchard 🍎 in a #wheelchair. It’s difficult if not impossible to move around the uneven grounds of a pumpkin patch 🎃 in a #wheelchair. It’s impossible to enjoy a hayride as a #paraplegic. It’s impossible to feel the leaves 🍂 crunch beneath your feet 🚶‍♀️ in a #wheelchair. It’s IMPOSSIBLE to fully enjoy Autumn’s adventures.

I miss walking hand-in-hand 🤝 with my honey through piles of leaves, as we laughed together enjoying each other. I miss being happy as we playfully took pictures of ourselves in those fun autumn cutouts.

As we drove around the #Catskills this past weekend. which was in full peak for leaf peeping, I was once again reminded of all the things I no longer can do since that fateful day in June 2016 when surgery gone wrong left me #paralyzed. As the colors begin to fade and days become darker earlier, so too does my spirits darken. Outwardly, for my honey, I force myself to enjoy the ride, enjoy looking at the colorful landscape passing by me as we drove, while inward thinking just as sure as the beauty of this landscape is passing me by so too has my happy life.

As always, I wish you days filled with wonder – take a minute to wonder what it is that made you smile today!

Please feel free to “SHARE” this post with your family/friends! And don’t forget to leave your comments below, we love hearing from you!

Share

 

In Honor Of Our First Year of #Living_This_Paralyzed_Life of “Wonders” Part 1 = Q4 2018

Okay so we know it’s been 3+ years now since that fateful day in June 2016 when hip surgery went wrong and left me #paralyzed from the waist down, but it’s been almost 1 year since I started blogging again. I thought I’d recap and summarize my year of blogging about #LivingThisParalyzedLife, some good, some bad, some happy, and oh yes, some sad, but all the while a real life learning adventure. Continue Reading Here

When Limited Mobility/Independence Become Even More Limited

After my surgery gone wrong left me #paralyzed from my waist down back in June 2016, #mobility and #independence came to a screeching halt! 

About 8 months later, Continue Reading Here

Falling For Fall…Again😉

OMG, for the first time since my surgery gone wrong left me #paralyzed in 2016, I can’t believe my inner self is actually flirting with falling for Fall. . . again! Continue Reading Here

My/Our 4 Day Weekend…YAY turned to NAY

So last week Wednesday was our Friday! Yay, we had a 4 day weekend ahead!  I was excited, excited to spend 4 days with my honey! And then it happened, as it has so many times over the last 3 years, I was reminded of how  useless I really am because of this dX#m #wheelchair 🙁 Continue Reading Here

When My Health Affects His

STRESS, 😬it’s there, we all have it, can’t stop it, can’t change it, but when my honey’s health is now affected because of me, well, tell me, how am I supposed to deal with that?

He loves me I know, he worries about me it’s true, he stresses over us, what can I do? Continue Reading Here

HELLO. . . I Can Speak For Myself

Lately I’ve been finding myself getting more and more frustrated 😠 when I get treated different when my honey and I are out.” I’m finding more and more people talk about me as if I wasn’t there when I’m right there!

Last week we went to the dry cleaners so I could have a few pieces altered and the seamstress looked directly at my honey and asked “can she try this on”? EXCUSE ME. . . do you not see me?????

Does she need this, can she do that, does she what to do this, at the risk of being rude I feel I need to start responding with “HELLO, I’M SITTING RIGHT HERE AND CAN SPEAK FOR MYSELF!”

So what is it that makes people feel I’m not capable of speaking for myself, is it the wheelchair, is it because I’m a person of short stature or is it a combination of the fact that I am a person of short stature who happens to be in a wheelchair? I struggle to answer that because I simply just don’t know.

I had a very successful career for 30 working at the headquarters of a national non-profit organization. Ending my career I was a Director responsible for generating millions of dollars annually which required a great deal of contract negotiating to come to a mutually beneficial agreement. So, if I somehow managed to think for myself and speak to others for 55 years, why now all of a sudden do people think it’s okay to speak as if I’m not “sitting” right in front of them!

As always, I wish you days filled with wonder – take a minute to wonder what it is that made you smile today!

Please feel free to “SHARE” this post with your family/friends! And don’t forget to leave your comments below, we love hearing from you!

Share

Adjusting to Celebrating. . .

This past weekend we celebrated both my mother’s 80th birthday and St. Patrick’s Day…let me say I “celebrated” on the outside and cried on the inside. Continue Reading Here

Can You See Me Hugging You

Sadly #paralysis takes away the spontaneous touch that says you matter or the unexpected hug that says I’m so glad to see you and worse, the needed caress that says I’m sorry. Continue Reading Here

Snow = A Love to Hate Life Story

Snow, it’s a fact of life if you live in a northern state in the USA, snow, it’s one of the four seasons, snow, it went from fun, exciting to fear and dreading another snow event. Continue Reading Here

Loading
Archives